Yes thats right my beautiful baby girl is now walking, or as Clarks like to call it, Cruising! I bought her a gorgeous pair of shoes takes ages to get them on but i LOVE them!
Seeing her walk has made me realise even more how fast she is growing up she is now officially a toddler i love the fact she can talk to me, tell me what she wants more shes a lot more fun but a lot more hardwork!
The past few weeks i have being feeling really lonely, I think its because Christmas is looming up on us and seeing all the couples together, also i am VERY broody! Which isnt a good combination. Christmas this year is going to be a struggle, i started buying Emmas Christmas presents late August to spread the cost out i just want her to have everything she should be able to have and living on Income support with no support from a partner is hard! Expecially with Driving lessons, Nappies wipes and all the other baby equipment, doesnt help that shes growing out of 6-9 clothes so ive had to spend a small fortune on new warmer baby clothes. Which is why ive decided to get a part time job which is going to be a mission within itself! As i cant drive yet the buses dont come very often and i live in a tiny village with no shop so im going to have to rely on my parents help!
But as a single parent its up to me to make the best life for my daughter, as hard as it may be to pull myself away from her and vise versa.
my babies
x
Tuesday, 28 September 2010
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Youth funds, Websites, and juggling Emma.
These few weeks have being a real test of my time! With being young leader ive created an online consultation with help of my 'boss' and have been calling round schools to try and get them to get involved!
My website is up and running and im trying to get young mothers to post their stories, although i would prefer video blogs but no one seems to be doing it. I guess it is a bit nerveracking!
So needless to say ive being a very busy mummy and with Emma being at the age she is, shes getitng into everything (the biscuit cupboard been her favourite) Shes saying a lot more words now last night she was on her play phone having a conversation she said 'hiya' 'whos their' 'goodbye' What a clever little miss! The health visitor came and got her weighed she is 20lb now! Still in 6-9 clothes though!
The health visitor has giving me a list of baby groups in my area so im going to go explore next week, I want emma to get more friends shes at the age where she needs to socialise more! My health visitor has also giving me the oppotunity to work (for free) at a baby clinic which im hoping to start soon!
My website is up and running and im trying to get young mothers to post their stories, although i would prefer video blogs but no one seems to be doing it. I guess it is a bit nerveracking!
So needless to say ive being a very busy mummy and with Emma being at the age she is, shes getitng into everything (the biscuit cupboard been her favourite) Shes saying a lot more words now last night she was on her play phone having a conversation she said 'hiya' 'whos their' 'goodbye' What a clever little miss! The health visitor came and got her weighed she is 20lb now! Still in 6-9 clothes though!
The health visitor has giving me a list of baby groups in my area so im going to go explore next week, I want emma to get more friends shes at the age where she needs to socialise more! My health visitor has also giving me the oppotunity to work (for free) at a baby clinic which im hoping to start soon!
Friday, 10 September 2010
My new website
Things are looking up! I have created a website for younger parents http://youngmumssupport.webs.com/
Its only in the early stages but the more people who look and register the better it will get.
Hopefully sometime in the near future ill be able to afford to have the domain in my name and to get the picture of the trees taken off! But it will do for now :)
Its only in the early stages but the more people who look and register the better it will get.
Hopefully sometime in the near future ill be able to afford to have the domain in my name and to get the picture of the trees taken off! But it will do for now :)
Youth fund application.
I really want to work with younger parents, and teenagers to help prevent teenage pregnancy but support those who are aswell,
I have been looking up ways to help and have come accross a youth fund application formed by the government, Im thinking of making a dvd about been a teenage mum the difficulties and peoples stories, Im aware derbyshire have already done this and its a great success.
I want to do this county wide though, because its not just county's that have this issue its the UK in general. If anybody would like to perhaps help in this, whether its help making a website or been the camera lady/man or even sharing your experiences as a teenage mother.
Also for anyone who has any other ideas of how we can help younger parents through the youth fund application.
I have been looking up ways to help and have come accross a youth fund application formed by the government, Im thinking of making a dvd about been a teenage mum the difficulties and peoples stories, Im aware derbyshire have already done this and its a great success.
I want to do this county wide though, because its not just county's that have this issue its the UK in general. If anybody would like to perhaps help in this, whether its help making a website or been the camera lady/man or even sharing your experiences as a teenage mother.
Also for anyone who has any other ideas of how we can help younger parents through the youth fund application.
Wednesday, 8 September 2010
Being a single Mother Likes dislikes and MEN!
Dislike about been a SINGLE mother:
Not been able to just ask someone to hold Emma whilst i got something from a cupboard
Not been able to get them to quickly watch Emma whilst i had a shower.
Not been able to share my experience with anyone
Feeling lonely on a night time when Emmas in bed
When i have a headache or bad period pains i have to still follow Emma about instead of having help.
LOVES about been a SINGLE mother:
Been able to choose her name without consulting anybody
Been able to decide whats best for Emma on my own
Spending every day with Emma on my own just me and her
Having that special bond because im always with her
Knowing im the only one that can settle Emma when shes sad, (sounds mean but makes me feel special)
With previous experiences of men, im scared of falling in love again, ive had one relationship since Emmas dad, it lasted a month because i was too nervous to let myself fall in love. I pick at men all the time i hate the fact they shout, they lie, their mean, their controlling. But ive got to realise it isnt all men ive had bad experiences and i need to put it behind me.
I do want to have children in the future but i want a man this time, i want to do it properly i want Emma to have a decent man in her life, someone she can call Daddy. I want her to have brothers and sisters to play with i want her to have a proper family a mummy a daddy brothers and sisters, and a decent life.
Not been able to just ask someone to hold Emma whilst i got something from a cupboard
Not been able to get them to quickly watch Emma whilst i had a shower.
Not been able to share my experience with anyone
Feeling lonely on a night time when Emmas in bed
When i have a headache or bad period pains i have to still follow Emma about instead of having help.
LOVES about been a SINGLE mother:
Been able to choose her name without consulting anybody
Been able to decide whats best for Emma on my own
Spending every day with Emma on my own just me and her
Having that special bond because im always with her
Knowing im the only one that can settle Emma when shes sad, (sounds mean but makes me feel special)
With previous experiences of men, im scared of falling in love again, ive had one relationship since Emmas dad, it lasted a month because i was too nervous to let myself fall in love. I pick at men all the time i hate the fact they shout, they lie, their mean, their controlling. But ive got to realise it isnt all men ive had bad experiences and i need to put it behind me.
I do want to have children in the future but i want a man this time, i want to do it properly i want Emma to have a decent man in her life, someone she can call Daddy. I want her to have brothers and sisters to play with i want her to have a proper family a mummy a daddy brothers and sisters, and a decent life.
9-12 months. Temper tantrums, a whole new Emma!
By the age of 9 months Emma had lots of hair! I have to put it in a bobble now, people call her jedward, or think her hair is static!
I didnt want to be a nasty mother, but i dont want Emma to be a spoil brat, i dont want her going around in life thinking she deserves everything without doing things to earn it (If that makes sense)
So when she picks up something she shouldnt or does something she shouldnt i look at her and say firmly 'No' i thought she might of winged but she goes into full blown tantrums! She lies on the floor, bangs her head even bites her finger! But im not going to give up on this one, she cant think she can do whatever she wants becuase life doesnt work that way. So now when she does it i put her head in my lap hold her hands and make sure she doesnt hurt herself but never make a fuss.
When Emma was 10 months we moved to a village (with my family) It was hard to adapt (Still is) Their are hardly any buses, wer'e unable to go to baby groups. Theirs no people 'like me' their so i have no friends. I feel sorry for Emma because at her age she needs to interact with Children. Thats why im going to concentrate on my driving lessons.
I decided to get rid of my stroller, and buy a 2nd hand buggy (Ziko Herbie) Its the first buggy in Emma's life that she likes! I bought it because its parent facing and its really made a difference, Maybe she hated the other buggies because she couldnt see me, or feel like she wasnt part of the 'action'.
The best part of these three months was Emmas birthday! We had lots of family come down and celebrate i baked two cakes, one was a clowns face which my mum made for my 1st birthday and the 2nd one was a shape of a 1! Her birthday was on the Friday we didnt do too much for it, she opened her presents in the morning me and her played all day whilst my mum grandma and great grandma baked ready for the party on the Saturday. On the Saturday lots of my family came down Emma had a really great day (she loves attention!) I had a bit of a cry on the Friday night, i cant believe shes one already, shes really made me grow up this past year, made me realise whats important in life. She IS the most funny fantastic most beautiful little girl in the whole world and i wouldnt change a thing about her, ... (well maybe her tantrums)
2 weeks after her birthday it was my 18th! I spent the day with Emma and my mum, brother and sister and wickstead park, took Emma on her first ride, she loved the teacups! I didnt go out for it i didnt feel 'ready' to leave her.
I didnt want to be a nasty mother, but i dont want Emma to be a spoil brat, i dont want her going around in life thinking she deserves everything without doing things to earn it (If that makes sense)
So when she picks up something she shouldnt or does something she shouldnt i look at her and say firmly 'No' i thought she might of winged but she goes into full blown tantrums! She lies on the floor, bangs her head even bites her finger! But im not going to give up on this one, she cant think she can do whatever she wants becuase life doesnt work that way. So now when she does it i put her head in my lap hold her hands and make sure she doesnt hurt herself but never make a fuss.
When Emma was 10 months we moved to a village (with my family) It was hard to adapt (Still is) Their are hardly any buses, wer'e unable to go to baby groups. Theirs no people 'like me' their so i have no friends. I feel sorry for Emma because at her age she needs to interact with Children. Thats why im going to concentrate on my driving lessons.
I decided to get rid of my stroller, and buy a 2nd hand buggy (Ziko Herbie) Its the first buggy in Emma's life that she likes! I bought it because its parent facing and its really made a difference, Maybe she hated the other buggies because she couldnt see me, or feel like she wasnt part of the 'action'.
The best part of these three months was Emmas birthday! We had lots of family come down and celebrate i baked two cakes, one was a clowns face which my mum made for my 1st birthday and the 2nd one was a shape of a 1! Her birthday was on the Friday we didnt do too much for it, she opened her presents in the morning me and her played all day whilst my mum grandma and great grandma baked ready for the party on the Saturday. On the Saturday lots of my family came down Emma had a really great day (she loves attention!) I had a bit of a cry on the Friday night, i cant believe shes one already, shes really made me grow up this past year, made me realise whats important in life. She IS the most funny fantastic most beautiful little girl in the whole world and i wouldnt change a thing about her, ... (well maybe her tantrums)
2 weeks after her birthday it was my 18th! I spent the day with Emma and my mum, brother and sister and wickstead park, took Emma on her first ride, she loved the teacups! I didnt go out for it i didnt feel 'ready' to leave her.
6-9 Months. Weight issues, leaving her and crawling
At the age of six months i understood why people hated the teething stage. Emma was sucking and biting everything she was crying all day sometimes on a night aswell, id hold her for hours hugging her whilst she screamed i tried everything dentinox, calpol, bonjela cold carrots but nothing worked. at 7 months she finally stopped teething for a little while Thank god i thought!
My anxiety was getting a bit better, Emma was interacting a lot more with my family expecially my little brother jack and my mum she always laughed at them. I felt comfortable leaving her with them so i decided to go out for the night when she was 8 months. I was only 17 but i wanted to go out nightclubbing with friends, it was only a 5 minute walk from my house i had my phone on me. We went down at 9 i was a bit nervous, nervous about how i looked compared to all my other friends. I sat in the corner sipping my WKD 'Do you want another' said a friend 'No just incase Emma gets ill' They told me to let my hair down but i couldnt, i went home at 1am back with my babygirl, their was nowhere else id rather be.
My body was getting me down more and more, i wanted to get fitter. No wonder no man wanted me look at me! 32A breasts, what i thought was a wobbly tummy. I went down to 6 stone 9 and still felt insecure. I thought i looked fine untill i tried on my brothers clothes for a laugh and fit in them perfectly, size 11-12 and i was a 17 year old woman. Things have to change i thought. It was hard because Emma would sit on my lap whilst i ate and as soon as she got bored id stop eating, So i bought a hair chair for her i was adamant i wanted to set a better example for Emma. I finally got up to 6stone12. I realised my tummy wasnt wobbly just because my tummy wasnt as toned doesnt mean i looked hideous having a baby changes your body and you have to embrace it with open arms if you want to be happy.
At the age of 9 months my baby girl finally started crawling i was so proud, she'd been so angry with herself for weeks because she wanted to get about and she couldnt. I could tell she felt a sense of achievement which made me feel so proud, see'ing her crawling about getting into everything and laughing. She was really getting a personality of her own. Even though she was still clingy things had definatly improved, i still wasnt able to put her ina buggy or in her cot but she would explore the living room instead of hugging me.
My anxiety was getting a bit better, Emma was interacting a lot more with my family expecially my little brother jack and my mum she always laughed at them. I felt comfortable leaving her with them so i decided to go out for the night when she was 8 months. I was only 17 but i wanted to go out nightclubbing with friends, it was only a 5 minute walk from my house i had my phone on me. We went down at 9 i was a bit nervous, nervous about how i looked compared to all my other friends. I sat in the corner sipping my WKD 'Do you want another' said a friend 'No just incase Emma gets ill' They told me to let my hair down but i couldnt, i went home at 1am back with my babygirl, their was nowhere else id rather be.
My body was getting me down more and more, i wanted to get fitter. No wonder no man wanted me look at me! 32A breasts, what i thought was a wobbly tummy. I went down to 6 stone 9 and still felt insecure. I thought i looked fine untill i tried on my brothers clothes for a laugh and fit in them perfectly, size 11-12 and i was a 17 year old woman. Things have to change i thought. It was hard because Emma would sit on my lap whilst i ate and as soon as she got bored id stop eating, So i bought a hair chair for her i was adamant i wanted to set a better example for Emma. I finally got up to 6stone12. I realised my tummy wasnt wobbly just because my tummy wasnt as toned doesnt mean i looked hideous having a baby changes your body and you have to embrace it with open arms if you want to be happy.
At the age of 9 months my baby girl finally started crawling i was so proud, she'd been so angry with herself for weeks because she wanted to get about and she couldnt. I could tell she felt a sense of achievement which made me feel so proud, see'ing her crawling about getting into everything and laughing. She was really getting a personality of her own. Even though she was still clingy things had definatly improved, i still wasnt able to put her ina buggy or in her cot but she would explore the living room instead of hugging me.
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