Labour and Birth of Max!

On Wednesday 4th July me and Grant set off to the hospital at 8.30am i was so nervous!
We got to the induction ward, and i was monitored for a few hours, finally i got my pessary inserted at 11.30am i was 3cm dilated but my cervix was to the back so she felt she wouldnt be able to break my waters yet.
We were allowed off the ward aslong as we came back every 3 hours for Obs, so me and Grant went into town to do some baby and snack food shopping! at 2.30 we went to costa for a drink and i started getting slight niggles nothing major, so we headed back to the hospital, in the induction ward they had a sitting room with a tv some sofa's and a birthing ball so we spent a few hours in there with Grant watching Wimbledon and me bouncing on the birthing ball. At 8pm Grant went out to get us some dinner, i had my next lot of obs so got onto my bed and the midwifes checked Max's heartbeat, he had a major decelleration lasting 4 minutes, they got me on my side, sat me up but nothing worked, the lady pressed the emergancy alarm and tons of doctors came running in, i managed to text grant 'COME NOW' Max's heartbeat managed to get back up so the drs put me on the monitor and put a canular in just incase i needed to go into theatre.
Max's heartbeat was fine for a few hours so because i wasnt in established labour Grant had to go home at 10pm, i told him to keep his phone by his side because the pains were starting to get a little worse.
The midwifes ran me a bath but it made me feel worse so i got out after ten minutes, went back into my bed and started getting quite strong contractions so the midwife checked me and i was 4cm dilated my cervix was thin and to the front so she told me id be transferred to the labour ward soon for my waters to be broken but not to tell my partner just yet... of course i text him to let him know what was going on, he got in a taxi and its a good job he did.
At 1am they took me to the labour ward and broke my waters, as soon as they did i was in agony, contractions became so strong so quickly, i was sucking on the gas and air begging for drugs, i was only 4cm dilated i had a long way to go and i couldnt handle it, but the midwife refused to give me any, Grant was telling me to stay calm, he rubbed my back and was there for me. All of a sudden i felt the urge to push i lay on the bed, did 3 big pushes and Max was born at 1.45am on Thursday 5th July.
He was perfect, he was placed onto my chest straight away, Grant cut the cord and i gave Max his first feed.
He weighed 5lb6 and he is truly perfect just like his sister.

3rd Trimester!

My pregnancy was going so smoothly, until i hit 34 weeks when my bp started rising, every Monday i had a midwife appointment, and every time she sent me to the hospital to be checked over. 
At 35 weeks Max's growth decreased, i also began slow labour, i was admitted to hospital twice because i was getting irregular contractions, and my cervix had started to dilate i was given steroid injections and bp tablets.
At 36 weeks the drs finally decided that i needed to be induced, the induction was for Wednesday 4th July and i was so nervous!

My last bump picture :)

2nd Trimester!!

The 2nd trimester flew by!

At 16 weeks we had a gender scan and found out... ITS A BOY which Grant was very very excited about haha. We had such difficulty with names, i loved the names Reuben and Travis, Grant loves Frankie, but wer'e pretty sure we've come to a decision :) Max We both love it so fingers crossed neither of us will change our minds!

Emma is even saying baby Max, shes kissing my belly and she talks about him quite a lot. 

My bump grew pretty rapidly after 17 weeks!

We had a growth scan at 28 weeks and he is a little bit small there estimating him to be 5lb14 at birth which is still a pound heavier then Emma. My consultant has said as long as i dont develop Pre-eclampsia and stay the way i am now i will be able to have a home birth which i am thrilled about. I dont want to be away from Emma i want her to be able to see Max as soon as hes born really, i want the bond and i dont want to be away from her. Wer'e all very excited about his arrival only 9 11 weeks to go!!!!!!!!!!

My First Trimester!

I am FINALLY in my 2nd Trimester. Ive found with both my pregnancies theyve both gone so slowly! 

Emma is beginning to understand that she is going to be a big sister. She plays with her dolly calling it her little sister and talks to my tummy its really lovely. I hope she doesnt become jelous of the baby but im going to spend as much time with her as i do now and im sure she will love it!

This pregnancy has been alot different. With Emma i was asleep by 8pm every night i was exhausted, i was sick after 12 weeks every night untill i gave birth. With this pregnancy i was tired for the first few weeks but now i cant sleep, im finding it really hard to get into a comfortable position. Ive been sick quite alot this past 6 weeks or so but i havent vommed this week so fingers crossed!

I started bleeding when i was 10 weeks, very scary! I called my midwife and we went in for a scan the next day, the baby was fine he had a beautiful strong heartbeat and looked like a real baby not just a blob anymore i was over the moon!

Ive got alot of worries for this pregnancy however. I am seeing a consultant alongside a midwife as of my difficulties with Emma. I had pre-eclampsia and gave birth to her with the cord around her neck at 38 weeks, she weighed 4lb14. Im also been reffered because my bmi is now at 16.7. I havent yet seen the consultant and i dont know what to expect when i do in a couple of weeks time. I am also alot more worried about labour (Yes i know its a long way off yet!) but i cant help but worry. I know the pain i know how much it hurts and i know how painful stitches are! I hope that my pregnancy is straightforward and that i give birth have no stitches and me and my beautiful child can go home to see Emma within 6 hours....


12 WEEKS

 

moving health problems and an unlikely surprise.

Last time i wrote on her was July, me and Grant are still together and very much in love. In fact we live together now we live in a 3 bedroomed house with Emma. We've been there for around a month its gone so quick. and weve even got kittens!  Wer'e like a proper family and i love it! We have both changed jobs i am now an office administrator and Grant is a senior sales accounts manager.

In October i had a few health problems, i went to a+e with severe bloating and cramps i was in so much pain, the doctors found out i had an ovarian cyst which had burst i was in pain for weeks and weeks, i walked funny and just in agony!
2 weeks ago i started feeling 'funny' so i took a pregnancy test, it was positive. Thats right i am expecting my 2nd child due 19th July. Me and Grant were in massive shock it was a total surprise!
When i had my cyst i had to go off all contraception for my hormones to 'do their job' and remove the cyst as soon as possible, and in that time i fell pregnant.

The next day i started to get a lot of pain, went straight to a+e had blood tests and got sent home with an appointment with the gyene ward the following morning. I went their on the Thursday had a scan, they couldnt see anything my whom is backwards tilting so its a struggle to see clearly at the best of times! They sent me back home and booked another appointment the following day where i had a blood test, the results werent great. During the early stages of pregnancy your hcg (hormone levels) are meant to double every 48 hours and mine didnt, they went up gradulally but my progesten dropped from 40 to 30. I got sent home again to come back in 2 days time to have a blood test and a scan, the nurses didnt see me we waited 3 hours when a doctor called us into the ward. They wanted me to sit in over night as they thought i had an ectopic pregnancy and wanted to operate the following day. I was a mess i couldnt stop crying luckily the doctor said i could go home as long as i came back early the next morning for a scan. I stayed at my parents house that night i needed my mum i didnt want to have a tube removed, not at my age! We went back at 8.30 the next day i was shaking with fear crying uncontrollably. We had a consultant who did an internal scan, we saw that i have a 12mm cyst in my right ovary but most importantly a sac in my uterus we were so happy it wasnt ectopic!  The blood results had also showed my hcg levels werent doubling but rising well and my progesten had not dropped. I went back a couple of days later to have another scan and we saw the baby inside the sac. Thank goodness, wer'e not completly out of the woods yet as i have a scan next Tuesday to see the heartbeat as soon as we see that i will breathe a sigh of relief.

This pregnancy wasnt planned but the thought of loosing a child brings tears to my eyes. Emma is going to be a fantastic sister, Grant a fantastic father and i am going to try my best to do right my Emma and my unborn child. We are determined not to go on benefits, wer'e saving already im entitled to maternity leave and will be returning to work after.

New boyfriend :)

I have a new boyfriend :) Grant. We met on the bus to work..well i say met he catched my eye the first day i saw him i used to purposly sit opposite him on the bus and he didnt even notice! I even used the 'can i borrow your lighter' excuse. No such luck. I was out with my best friend a couple of months ago and i saw him in a club we were both drunk so i poked him and was like 'HIII!' and he was like 'HIII i know you!' and i was like 'yeah babe from the bus!' and he kissed me and walked (well stumbled) away.
Couple of days later i was on the bus home and he sat down on the chair infront of me and said 'did i see you on Saturday night' and it all started from there :) I was the one that had to ask for his number though...

Ever since then we text each other every day without fail, we took things 'slow'...well slow in my books! he didnt kiss me for a good couple of weeks and then, 5 weeks ago we made it official and its being so good!

We see each other every day on the bus and some weekends, hes 21 and he works in sales hes funny and laid back and makes me feel comfortable and happy. Hes not untrusting hes not a lier hes pretty close to perfect :)

He gets on with Emma i think and Emma likes him hes not a massive child fan though so its abit different to Aidan. Aidan used to ask how Em was every day and when he called me he chatted to her he genuinly wanted to spend time with her which was the only thing i really miss about Aidan. (We broke up a week after my post about him because of the trust he was too clingy and thought i was gonna cheat all the time it drove me crazy!!)

My beautiful daughter is turning TWO

In 4 days i will have a two year old daughter. Its unbelievable how time flies people say to you 'make the most of them been young because it goes so fast' and your like 'yeah sure' but it really does!
Emma is so beautiful and so clever, she talks in sentances you can understand exactly what shes saying her favourite phrases are 'i like...(octonauts or charlie and lola usually)' 'hii, good day?' and 'Emma go play!'.

When i get home from work i ring the doorbell she comes running up and says 'Hii mummy good day!?' and then 'i missed you, love you mummy' Every single day without fail she makes me the proudest mother in the world.

She has honestly changed my life for the better shes turned me into a good loving happy woman and for that i will be truly grateful forever. She honestly is my world, words cannot describe how much love i have for my little girly!!!